I'm tired...

... of taking a pill every day to maintain my will to live & feel 'normal'.
... of going to a job day after day that I am becoming less and less interested in.
I am so tired of spending every weekend all alone & praying that my phone will ring - only to be disapointed when it doesn't. 
I'm so damn tired....
... of waking up every morning wondering what I have to live for today.
... thinking that people don't like me and will eventually hurt me... because I deserve it.
... being constantly negative and, not knowing what to do about it, because I just don't see anything positive anymore. 
I am tired of being judged because I am overweight.
I am tired of being overweight, but not feeling worthy enough to change it... because no
man will ever love me anyway...

I am tired... of being tired...